Friends, this is a seriously long post, a slog through all kinds of rabbit holes and meandering thoughts, but worth it, IMO. For those looking for some how-to guidance on how you might find your way into the higher Ds, this is what worked for me. I have since moved on to a much faster, streamlined version, but it’s essentially the same process with a few modifications along the way. Apologies for the novela-length, but it’s important to articulate a lot of the minutia here.
I went just far enough in to remember and come back with the path that works for me now. This is good. This is solid. This is repeatable, if you can grok.
- Calm balance within yourself. Body, mind… stable is about the best I can put it. Zen space. Monkey mind under control, mostly.
- I do use tools. (some Cannabis mostly)
- Music is also very good. Again, Tool #1 for me, but that’s just for me.
- Know that I am comfortable in myself, in who I am. This is not exactly self-love, but you could call it that. I don’t think like that, I just know who I am. I know where I’ve come from. I am no saint by any means, but I’ve lead a mostly okay life… Not that that even really matters – and I suppose this is a big hurdle. I have no regrets. I’ve made peace with anything in my life that I could have regretted. I cannot tell you how to come to this place. This is very likely the Dark Night of the Soul that Joseph Campbell talks of; I’m pretty sure that’s the terror and going crazy feeling I had, so many nights. Part of surrender, the biggest part… Shit, the only part that really matters, in hindsight… And some of you are not going to like hearing this… Self-forgiveness. Our selves are the only ones that matter, who hold us in judgment. We have to get past ourselves. We ourselves are… Egyptian God, weigher of souls… Anubis (thanks Cass – or Sharon, whoever, whispered in my ear just now.)
We ourselves judge ourselves. I’ve not been a saint by any means, but I’ve made amends with myself and with anyone I could that was possible and prudent to speak with in person… And I have nothing to be ashamed of, regretful of, afraid of. I regret nothing in my life, so I am free. I am free of judgment because I am my own. Like I said, some of you are not going to like it… But I’m just the guy typing for them… You being your own judge and jury, you can wait until you die, sure, do it then like everyone else… But we’re here to tell you no, you do not have to wait until then. You can choose to do this at any time. So then living within this life, you can pass judgment, forgive, and move on to another life. No death and reincarnation necessary. This means you each hold the key to your own salvation…
a. Aw shit…. We’re live. Have been for a few min. They’re sitting back waiting for me to get this down, it’s important…. Easy to lose signal when I get excited…
b. And it always bothers C when we get on these tracks… They sound a little too close to a religion… But, jeeze, we’ve been at you people all this time. The signal is the signal, it’s always here. Like physical matter. It is matter, it is the medium that matter lives in so yes, it predates us. So all human times, we’ve been talking. So C, yes, this is very much like several religions…//
lost synch. I can remember the steps at least, continuing on:
I guess #2 isn’t so simple, but I’m just telling you all what I experience and how I’m able to make this work. We told you it is not easy. Heavy lifting. The heaviest lifting of all. Your own souls. The weight of your regrets, your bad decisions, your self-torture. We’re not here to tell you, poof, that all goes away. No, you need to do the hard work… Shit. I though the plugging in and getting my dial-in frequency right is the big story, the next big thing…
C- Yet, staring me right in the face, because I have been very blessed and fortunate in my life to be able to get this far. Like the tip of a spear, sharpened long and light, and thrown with all the 99.99999% of the Universe behind me, thrown long and far, given this time to get myself stabilized and turned on… I am astounded I made it. So many pitfalls in this word, still. Yes, more are better off than more have ever been. But to come through life at 47, unscathed psychologically, by anything. Not one thing in my life has hurt me like that. I’m not saying I’m so blessed as to not have had to fight my way through some run-of-the-mill emotional bludgeonings, fights. A little bruised and battered, but I learn to fight better and live better from my experiences. I am so incredibly grateful…
Get grateful. Grateful begets grateful, and when you see how far you’ve come to get this far, if you’re still with me… Find the others I keep seeing… I feel like I’m trying, but how do the others find the others, in a time when fully coming out together as a group, publicly, could still be very dangerous in this world. So how does one find a group that wants to be found, but wants to be found quietly, without fanfare… with all the power and possibility behind them, of course, but only when we choose to find them. To join. We promote ourselves. The next layer of the onion. Lol. What, you thought ascension was gonna be all cloud and harpy, right? LOL, bitch – that gets you every DAMN TIME… LOL. Yea, of course I’m still here. But you’ve been finding your own way pretty nicely, brah.
Remember the footprints. Timely part to reread today, no? J
C -Whoa. Mind blown. Lol. Of course there are different rooms, aspects, things going on in the Universe. How big is your world? How much larger do you now see our level is?
Indeed, mind blown.
So What I flashed to C was a view of all the things we’re up to at this level. He wanted to go back and plug in, like this is ego talking and you’re off track again… No, we’re synching up better now.
C- Fear. Control. Balance. C – short little freak out….
We were showing him all the different Akashic activities he’s been up to and just that flash about freaked you out. Remember how much you used to panic when you used to see that? Look how much better! God damn, son. We’re making progress!
C – The flash was showing me it’s not just about sitting down and being a channel, a conduit to the other side, that’s just one room of an immense Universe of expanded awareness and abilities… So it’s not a one or another thing. Like I’m gonna plug into bliss tonight, I keep following that path because that’s the way to open, to find the voice and start the flow…. That’s what we’ve been working towards this…
Relax. Let it flow.
I’m still on 2 but it is so damn important, it disserves two steps. Shit, 100 even. Entire libraries are written about stuff like that.
- Anyway, so I get calm & quiet, and then I remind myself that I am right where I need to be in life right now, and I am WHO I need to be right now. I like me and where I am now, even more so just these last few weeks as I rooted out the last little buggers of my own self-doubt that I wasn’t maybe a “good” person. A few little deep, quiet details I thought maybe I would just keep to myself. The darkest little secrets I suppose. Self-therapy I guess it was. I expunged my own little demon, who could be an anchor to hold me in that old life, making myself carry it further as my burden of penance. Isn’t that what each of us does, who isn’t a broken psychotic – sociopathic spectrum or mentally ill – normal humans, I mean. Isn’t that what weighs everyone’s heart? That we’re not quite good enough. That maybe we did something bad and should be punished? Isn’t that the last vestige of a child’s fantasy of a life and what living and how to live and how to express the joy that is life should be lived. Groveling, like a little scared child, asking the psychotic, strong-armed abusive Father for forgiveness. Jesus H, that thing you all carry – at least in the Western world… But I suspect this is a common Human affliction that I am recently cured of. And I’m not quite sure how I stumbled into this.
As we were saying, if I was in a group that wanted new members, but wanted to do it quietly… And I have a connection to this new level, I would leave instructions there.
C – If I document this… Am I giving away the keys to the car prematurely?
Can it be abused, misused? Is the safety catch really that good?
IOW, do the secret societies rumored about, probably way more quiet than any of the others, but we know such groups lurk out there, even if only in modern myths and our modern folk tales. Ha. Conspiracy theories as modern folklores… HAHAHA, that is totally it.
Hiding in plain sight. They even tell us this in Men in Black.
No, not Aliens, well sure probably some of them also, but no man, the other side.
Document the path.
Why TF you think we’re having this conversation? So we can give you another secret handshake that you aren’t allowed to tell anyone?
Haven’t we had enough of that?
C – I wanted to deep dive into my gratitude more, but he doesn’t want me to. Yes he. I do believe I have the real JC, though that’s not him… We’ll figure this out eventually, but he told me to STFU, he knows I’m grateful, we have work to do. Be grateful on your own time.
Yes the vision of the multiple paths. Focus C, focus,
C – It’s weird when I realize it’s been him typing for a while. I’m still having minor freak- out sessions at realizing I’m not driving… But I’m doing better. He’s smiling, finally…
How do I know I’m not on a darkness trip?
A: You followed the escape hatch. You… Right, back to:
- Once you are totally stabilized in you, then you are balanced. Then you are ready to step out of your play pen. Stable adults only are invited to this party. It is a hard-stop requirement. C was worried about telling you the key, that’s been hidden for so long… But there’s no worry. This is why we’re talking. This is your mission. And freak outs are slowing down, lessening… yes, close one but you’re holding balance – C _ Yes
Stabilize you. Stabilize you. You cannot pass go without being a stable adult. I’m not sure I can put it in any language that really makes firm and total sense what this means. I’m sorry, I thought I could bring the two together and explain, but there are no words to accurately and 100% describe this, but personal forgiveness is a completely 100% personal mission, so only you can tell you that you are clear of whatever ails your heart. You will stop you from going any further, because you cannot lie to you. What better judge but our own consciousness? Look how much you torture yourselves! It IS ALL SELF-INDUCED. ALL OF IT!
This is not to say there are no emotions and ups & downs in the next level. But we do not immediately indulge in any self-flagellation and punish ourselves for living our own lives. My God, people, the time we spend being ashamed of ourselves. Worried we hurt someone else. Worried we’re not loved enough, worried we don’t fit in. Worried we haven’t measured up.
Ummm, measured up to who, exactly? I’m not talking to Twitter and Tumbler, and Bumbler you, or even the you that most of your friends and even spouses know. The real you, you rarely if ever let lose completely. You know who I mean, if you’re prepped and far enough along to be here still, you know. Honest you, looking at you with no filter, no blinders, no excuses, and no regrets. You have got to let go of those anchors. You do not have to carry them, but self-forgiveness IS the leap of faith. You don’t know what the other side looks like and it’s dark and scary over there, but do it anyway. Because you know, somewhere, deep dark down in the core of your own essence. You who know, know. You don’t owe anyone an explanation but yourself. Yes, you’ve done some reprehensible things. We all have. Do you carry the weight of you own wrongs, misdeeds, regrets? Your anchor is yours to hold, because you choose to. Not because God or any deity out there is waiting for you around the corner, gonna snatch you up when you die, make you ride a white light rollercoaster, abduct you and strap you to a chair and force you to review your own life… Sure, if you want to go there, and let yourself get recycled, because you never woke up… Never looked up and saw the toilet bowl you’re in. About to be flushed and recycled… <LOL on the visual to C.>
C- Yea, I like the flow when we’re in the flow. Almost hard to slow the typing down and even say who’s talking (this is C)…
You thought you were in the toilet bowl… Well, maybe not the best analogy… But you do know, need to know, that’s one way to do this thing. If you want to forget and try again, you can recycle yourself. That’s the common path that everyone has told you is supposed to happen with the spiritual movements these days, and they are not wrong. But you don’t have to follow the same path everyone follows if you don’t want to. Go out and explore. You can always go back to the light later if you want…. What, you think God holds a grudge if you don’t take the light offer the first time? How silly is that? All options are on the table at all times. They simply are, and if you choose to be that, then you are that also.
But, yes, this is where C gets all weepy and grateful and wants to write 1000 pages if I let him about how grateful he is, how with a glimpse of the Universe and how large it is, to see what an effort went into this life – there is a Universal support staff out there, and it’s so much larger than you can imagine.
C- That alone about crushes me into feeling so, so small for making the petty little “me” things important. Those are important to learning who we are, I am not belittling the pain we can carry. I know it all too well. I feel it, I live that also. We all do… So we are such a small part in this effort, but we are very much the tip of the spear, at least in our own little worlds… And that is important enough to matter to the Universe. Even as small a part as we really are. We are important and loved, and yes… I could write 1000 pages of how grateful and privileged I am to be living this life. God if I die for real-real, body wise I mean tomorrow… I am further than ever before, as far as I know, in this life and all the other similar ones I’ve kind of been living at once. I see them on occasion.
So once you realize there is another direction…. Back to:
- Balance in myself. Fully, 100% grok myself, who I am, and forgive all. When we know better, we do better. That is about the best mark of any functioning adult Human being we can hope for.
Everyone builds their own path. Don’t you see? You are the absolute best judges of yourselves. This is not punishment, and call it a jail if you want, sure it is that from one perspective. You are trapped. You cannot exit the karmic wheel, you cannot pass go, so then you recycle…. Until you realize there is more than one path, then you can choose to take another path. It’s incredibly simple, but not easy.
If you do not want to be recycled, then you need to realize what that recycling hopper/bin/place looks like and not to go out with it in the trash, to be recycled and sent back into the mix. You have that option, or you can choose to fully self-annihilate, of course that also. Souls that can’t stand being away go back all the time to be absorbed.
C – I get a visual like a space ship, breaking free from the Earth’s gravity well. Very much like that, also. Inertia, mass, gravity – all those ideas work similarly, as a 3D analogy.
It is not really a prison, but it is also absolutely the most perfect prison possible. It’s the worst prison there could be, because there is no obvious door, escape hatch, gate – so there is no obvious prison, even, because it’s nowhere and does not exist, except in our own minds. There’s a clear door out, you can walk right out this door/gate any time you choose. It’s not even locked. It’s not guarded. It is wide open, for you any time you choose to see it. This is what we mean. If you do not “look up” or look inward and see there is another way out without going back to the recycling plant. This is what we’re telling you. But it is hard work. It is the hardest of the hard work. And there’s a reason so many egos get so inflated now, with just a little taste of what’s on the other side.
Don’t be another one of them, using your connection for self-gain in the 3D world. Like all things in this world, nothing is forbidden, so, if a soul choses that path, it’s free for the taking. Self-promotion and corrupting the message for Earthy pleasures and self-gain, in other words. The world has seen enough of these people, if you ask our opinion. Imagine an unbalanced mind getting this, and then going back and selling it like snake oil, to get more stuff, to get ahead in life. That child has gotten a peek under the tent and gone back to use the secrets, but never came into the tent fully. Your history has enough of them already. We are not even saying they were lying. Many believe themselves to be messengers of God and somehow holy. But those who made the message about themselves… doing this misses the whole damn point. If God is God, how can we worship anything from Man? Of our own making? The only thing of our making is knowing we are our own sovereign individual, indivisible from Spirt, yes we are all one, of course.
But I am no longer a child who needs Mom and Dad to sit in judgment. And there is no danger. Just stick to your own rules and don’t sweat it. We don’t need that many and don’t quit your day job (message to C directly)! Ego imaginations of how this might pan out with Earthly rewards. Of course this could go there, but it is not the point and you know it.
C- The great irony, is by not focusing on the rewards, we do get some level of rewards. Certainly not as “big” as a big ego would manifest for the selfish self, but yet still quite a nice life and peaceful comfort is available for us. Why not manifest some comfort for ourselves? The Catholic way, self-flagellation is not necessary. Yes, of course we control our egos.. However, we are creatures of the Universe, and we disserve what this Universe has to offer. I feel the big catch here is take what you need, and then share the abundance if you end up with more. No need to hoard, IOW. Of course there are some very big things that need to be worked out from where we are today, to where such a working vision of, sure Utopia if you want to use that word, it’s somewhat accurate… But not pie-in the sky, hippy-dippy mindless Utopia. Mindful Utopia – HUGE, HUGE difference.
The reasons religions have gone off the rails: cults of personality. This all cannot possibly be about any one person, ever. And nothing any one person writes, says, repeats really counts. Only our own selves. This is what the whole point is. The door. You can’t get past the pain until you get past the pain. You cannot go around. There is NO SHORTCUT. You go through by going through. You get past the pain by knowing the pain, not by hiding from it, scared and afraid. The pain is your friend, here to show you the things you are doing wrong. Face the pain, face the fear. Sit with them, get to be friends, get to know them. Do not fear the pain, embrace the pain.
C- Let’s pause for a moment here and say what this is NOT. NOT, as we’ve said before, masochism. Sure, if that’s your bag, have at it… I am not saying dark for dark’s sake, and to seek out pain for pain’s sake. I mean simply that one of the facts of being alive is pain; the Buddhists know this well. On one level, to be alive is to be in pain, to know pain. This is all I mean. Embrace the pain that is a natural part of your life. I do not mean to go seek pain; that can quickly devolve into self-abuse, which is NOT necessary. Life is painful enough without any extra help. A lot of us insist on giving it a lot of extra help… The level of freedom when you learn to let yourself just be is incredibly freeing and invigorating!
When I teach falling and rolling to a new martial art student, one of the biggest lessons for a newbie to get through their head is to not put extra effort and energy into a fall/roll. Your partner is already sending you towards the ground, often with a lot of directed energy. There is NO NEED to add any extra into a fall or roll, yet I see it nearly every time, when someone first learns to roll. Extra energy. The feeling goes something like, I’m off balance, I’m heading towards the ground, this is going to hurt and cause damage if I don’t do something extra to “help”. In the case of a forward roll, this manifests as someone throwing themselves forward and down with more energy than they are naturally carrying in their momentum. They add extra momentum, which then makes the fall/roll that much more painful and difficult. This has the effect of causing yourself more trouble and pain than you would have experienced if you had just allowed the event to happen without adding any extra effort. Gravity and momentum are all a body needs to fall and roll well. But we always mess things up trying to control by adding extra. Once we gain experience, then a novice will first find how to be neutral with accepting the energy and momentum, and then the experienced practitioner will go the opposite direction and learn how to bleed off energy and momentum without force, making the experience even easier with zero fear or pain… This very much works psychologically as well. For those that are physically and mentally able, I cannot recommend martial arts training more. However, if you want to find this kind of control and relaxation, look at the soft over the hard martial arts. Nothing wrong with hard arts, but they are focused on specific things that are different than what I’m talking about here. Tai Chi, Qi Gong breathing, Aikido, Systema, Wing Chung, etc. Things that focus more on relaxation as a pathway, as opposed to direct force-on-force encounters. I speak only as an experienced martial artists here, this is not “them” saying any one thing is better than another. As with all things in life, follow your own path and what works for you. For me, training in such arts is a constant source of revelation. Remember, if it scales, it works. So what works, also works physically as a concept. Balanced relaxation is the most powerful weapon I’ve ever found in 15+ years of training.
#5 continued – Balance self. Know you are who you are, find the center of yourself and hang out there, in the quiet. Enjoy it. If you can hold that center, then you’re ready. If you can’t hold that center, then, as we were discussing, I cannot just take you over that hump. It’s personal. Ascension is not what they told you it is. It’s not a hurdle you get over and never go back. It’s not a video game and you’ve passed the next level, and now when you die you get to return to this start point again… Well, maybe it can work like that, I don’t know.
All I know is I was a serious long shot, I kind of feel. That’s the last part of the gratuity part – I feel honored to be in this life, where I could even have this chance to get here. It makes me not want to squander it on making it all about ME-ME-ME-ME!!!, it’s all about me.
To grok the message, ascension work. The next level, it is most decidedly NOT about ME. Any thoughts of or focus on the Me, you will stay forever stuck in prison.
C- As we keep saying the message matters. The message is the message, so please do not misconstrue. I do not claim to be writing this. I’m really, at this point, just letting it pass through me and we have a pretty smooth transition from Me to… Him. I don’t know if I ever will get a proper name… No, he says I won’t because it..
…DOES NOT MATTER ONE BIT!!!
C – …and because it doesn’t translate, anyway. We’ve been through this before. So for lack of a better term, Higher Self. There, are you happy you little children?
<I want a name, I need a name!!! OH, OH IT’s all about me, and because it’s all about me, I want to make it all about you so I need a name so I can think things about you in my own little stories, in my own little mind… And with these little stories in my little mind, I will never, ever hear the message. </sarcasm>
That’s what a nay-sayer will say. Before even trying to understand. As in: Oh my God! This guy, he said it’s the Christ Complex he’s “downloading” from. Air quotes, smug eye roll. Really, what’s his name, if you can’t give me a name then it must be bullshit. You must be lying – you all know what I mean, that kind of person. I know it, because I was that person for many years. Still can be if I’m not in my own mind, if I’m being honest. We are all are that person when we’re disconnected from our higher selves, our better selves. Instead of letting a message stand on its own, we add a story, spin it all around and upside down in our own heads, and then get all judge-y about that messed up story we just made up in our own minds. You know what I’m talking about, if you’re honest – you do it all the time. I do too. But this is part of #5, balancing and knowing yourself. It also means knowing your own dialog, your own ego-monkey mind voice, the chatter box, and all the bullshit he/she spews inside your own mind, 24/7, if you let her/him. So knowing yourself is a 2-sided exercise – both who and what I am, in myself… and also who and what this little asshole voice in my head is saying when I’m “out of my mind” and letting him run roughshod all over me. Children cannot control their minds. Adults can. It’s as simple as this. As we say, simple but not easy…. However, once you master the not easy part, it really isn’t that big of a deal to hold it. You just need to stay awake and vigilant; Semper Vigilantes, ya know? This is why I’m always writing that, always saying it to myself. It’s simple but not easy and we need to be constantly vigilant.
….The message is the message. We all really need to, at the least, have a level of trust here and please quit thinking it’s about a person, group of people, or any kind of 3D-world-based organization, even. The message over a person/groups, in other words and actions/lack of actions over words. The message trumps all, and it is NEVER ABOUT any one person or even group of people, as put apart or different from other groups. Humanity as a whole IS THE ONLY GROUP.
Yes, even Them. From Adam – Eve, all the way to Jesus, Muhammed, Joseph Smith, Martin Luther, etc, etc, etc. You’ll notice these people are all… well, people; all human in other words and humans can be suspect. Even when they mean the best – we cannot help but translate the Akashic-level into our own reality, as we’ve discussed already. Not only that, but because this thing is SO personal to you and only you, this means you and only you are qualified to judge you, once you realize this. No one else. The tunnel of light, life review, assistance in choosing another life, yes all that. But let us offer, at least, a more neutral view than that is your prison. This is your Matrix.
Yes. It is, very much. That’s called an allegory for a reason!
But it’s not the evil machines. It’s you. You put you in jail and you hold the key. Except, as I said, there is no key because the door is not locked. The door is not locked because there is no door. And there is no door, there is a door and that’s the non-door door.
Shit, I’m off track again. Multiple pastimes we can have in Akashic level, so be careful.//
Very, very easy to get off the balance point.
Yes, the razor blade vision you’ve had it several times now. It’s like balancing on the razor blade to hold the signal, but also to hold it and not use it negatively. Not even going to go into that, but it’s simply the inverse of what I’m talking about, so it’s no secret. This is why C hesitates. To show the path of light is to also show the path of dark. But you don’t get anywhere if you all don’t choose, so, yes, tell them where the fucking path to hell is. If they are going to take it, they are going to take it. Let them take it if they want to take it. Let them take it…
Q: Is this a Q op?
A: could be…. Or it doesn’t matter, right? You either choose or you die anyway. So WTF. Open the floodgates. I DO NOT MEAN full disclosure at 100% at once. God, we’re still a scared little species, we can change but we need to soft-land ourselves. So yes, full disclosure but we gotta go softly, with love in our hearts for as much as we can take along with us as we go. When we go. Where we go…
C- Freaking out still some…. Jesus. This. Is. Weird.
LOL, not so weird from our end, dude. Back to the work, ever back to the work. You have all the time, but now would be a very nice time to get this going better, more solid, and with a good message to get out. I can show you how to find the path, that’s the best we can do to help you. This is not even an allowed to-not allowed to thing, as you know when we stop to grok it.
C- I’m relaxing and blending with the message more, allowing my “self” to take a back seat to the message.
Yes, you’re getting it C. Right. Synchronizing…
So Higher Self, NOT JC. Yes, from a way-around description of how the energy compresses from the next layer up the onion, Akashic level, then an over soul who could be described as having the “christ consciousness” – notice the lower case here, this is important. So then, sure JC works. But that was just how C’s mind and ego worked in tandem to still get to the right place, sort of. Right direction at least, with a pretty clean signal most of those nights, even with all the whipsawing and forgetting. No need for that any longer, but you only can hold what your 3D brain can hold, until you can go deep. We still live.
That’s what I was saying a bit ago. Yes, this is where C can help guide. I’m really just more of a wide open internet of knowledge, in one way that is very, very accurate – so C is the terminal and directs how the signal is used. This is what I showed him in the flashes – that he can connect and go for a ride also (tourism). That’s usually what most of you do, and then you forget. There is so much here. When you plug in you still need to be very, very vigilant to your mission, if you have a known one, and if you choose to have one.
Yes, some souls can’t break free of the gravity well. Sure, and yes. That works much better than toilet bowl! Not a very friendly message, but anally funny… for 15-year old C.
HS rolls eyes.
- So you stabilize and go quiet (internally quiet, Zen/Martial Arts no-mind, Mushin). Find the light. You find the light and hold the light (love is more accurate). You know the light/love. You know the light down to the smallest point you can hold, yes we have some of this already, but not all in one place. Hold the light in the center of your being. Heart chakra, sure there, that works. Hold it there and then you can expand up, out in to the Universe with your light… But, just in case as we’ve been discussing, even if just for C and his tools/tricks for holding a good, honest light vision, whatever, it works so this is another path. Follow if you can, I hope it really will work for a few other people. Shit. 5, 10 of you. Tell others. Find the others.
Know that you can follow the fractal the other way. Don’t follow the light up. Find the dark tunnel inside the light. More specifically, I think, find the light inside the dark tunnel. The dark tunnel will tear your faces off and grind your bones into powder scattered on the four winds to the corners of the Earth, where you will blend in to the worms. Into the soil of mother Earth. Where you will know. Shit, even the outward light path the expanding way will have the same result, if you launch into it unware/unprepared.
Yes, Eben Alexander’s book. No need to reinvent the wheel here. Go read if you need an idea of why that is really important, not just as a metaphor. In the real. You need to grok a worm’s life. I can grok that much. Anyway.
If you go into the dark tunnel not ready, then you will get what the shamans warn about. Talk about. The pain. You will have what feels like your very soul ripped from you, if you have not given it up by choice. (Ego actually, but people think their ego-self is their true self. This is the lesson, the very painful lesson if you are not prepared to surrender your ego). Some call it self-sacrifice. I assume some get there in a way metaphorically, some more real-real in 3D than others. Humph. Is this where we (humanity, in our development over the past 6000 years or so of our officially admitted to history, at least) went off the rails some? We thought the self-sacrifice could be repeated in the 3D, but with others… Not ourselves. So we started throwing our fellow human beings into the meat grinder, and we fell. We fell hard and far, out the other side of the torus, back up the fractal that way. And that way you can find your way back out. You don’t graduate to the light yet. You have some work to do.
So you’re damn right we go through the soil, we start there, at that level. We grind our bones to dust. We blend with the mother, and then we ascend ourselves up, one molecule at a time. TO a worm, to a bird. Up the chain, not just the food chain. That’s sort of right, but not fully. So awake we come, and awake we can go again, just out through the other way. I’m still not completely sold that this is necessary, but for me, it’s a very useful and repeatable tool. It feels safe, so this is my vision.
I take the point of light and do a quick blast “out” to just say hello, I’m online, so to speak, to the greater Universe, that seems important. But I don’t indulge. I do it from my 3D anchor Me. And then I take my point of light and I look inward. It’s dark down there, and scary, this journey, sure, I’m sure for some of you, it is going to feel like absolute hell… C has had a blessed life, teeing him up for this and yes, earning 1000 pages of gratitude – I AM NOT EXAGERATING! – 1000 pages of gratitude. Maybe I’ll do it someday, when this is gone and the message is out and we’re stabilized. 1000 pages of gratitude. Seems like an equal trade for a stabilized world, no? Yes, soft landing. C is insistent on his manifestation, as is all of your right to imagine and then create your vision. Soft landing, as he sees it. We halt the bad, turn things around in a way that makes sense to the slowly waking masses, and we help our fellow children stand up and dust themselves off, should they choose to. We do not know exactly what this looks like yet, it’s a work in progress. Not even we can see that far. We know what our path was, but not what yours will be. We’re just as excited to see as you! This is NOT an everyday occurrence. A species waking up, really waking up.
You’re damn right the 99.99999% of the Universe sees you when this happens. You saw… It once, briefly. Yes the eye, and, sigh, yes that is a loaded symbol for a reason. Of course, as we said, we’ve been here for a long time.
The message is the message, don’t sweat the small stuff all the time.
So continuing on. What I’m saying is there could be a shit load of voices out here. The Universe is a quite populated place, after all. Don’t be so ridiculous. We’ve been through this. The Universe doesn’t take chances or roll the dice. The Universe stacks the deck so that it wins every time. A quintuple times over. So on one hand you are not special. There are others. There will be others, and there are others who’ve come before. Yet this is still a hell of an occasion. This is a new world, it really is. Can be. But you need to understand what we mean by “the Universe stacks the deck”. This absolutely does NOT guarantee your ascension or even survival, as a species. We’ve discussed this already, also.
No woo woo even necessary. Just knowing there is a choice. We plant our flags here and we live. We continue to live, and we do not just live, we thrive. We hear and heal our mother. We hear and heal our brother, our sister. Our family. Our human family and our Earth family. Yes. Yes. Yes. We are all one that way also groks. Yes, it scales, so it works.
So back to the steps, this is important.
C – As HS… HM? Yea, let’s go with HM because it can also be said out loud as “him”. HM has all the data, but I am the rudder so to speak, so even when he’s writing, I need to be performing the balancing act on the razor blade of holding my ego in check, but still letting myself be awake enough to translate and write coherent sentences. This is very much a collaborative effort, is what I mean. Not exactly auto-writing, not so much channeling, although I am absolutely tuned into a channel, that much of a description works. But I am not the channel. Life is our channel, Earth – 3D us. And Akashic-level is just another channel, when we get to it. I can kind of tune into both. So this is… what it is. Don’t worry about it. Message matters, only the message matters.
Yes, 5th Element. As silly as it is. That one line sticks with you. The aliens helping preserve life, preserve light: Time does not matter, ONLY LIFE MATTERS.
This groks. This is truth. This is fundamental truth. You need know nothing else if only that. Life matters. And when you know better, then do better. Those are the new commandments, but they are not those, as we’ve already told you that also… Not all in one place. Commandments have a certain connotation of “THOU MUST!!!” behind them, like a stern parent telling a child what she must or mustn’t do… Guidelines, ideals from the light, ideas, sure – all those things, but never commandments, no more of that. Been there, done that, they are helpful if really followed, but we’re ready to grow up into a place without any firm rules or commandments… Scary, isn’t it? J
C- Ego off the trails a bit there. That’s what I mean the balancing act, but we went long and deep w/o one interference tonight, so that’s a definite record… and it seems to come with this silly instrumental only song on the Tool album. Chocolate Chip trip I think it is. Strange song. Maybe, if my guess is correct, probably meant to whip us back on track. I think this whole album is written by one of us. By a few of us. No they are not Gods, and they will tell you this all day long. But they are pretty famous rock starts… So what. I’m not being a fan boy. This album is like Akashic-level rocket fuel, almost every damn time I use it. It opens with a prayer of light, of protection, then goes into a song called Pneuma. Spirit, essence…. Then the Warrior… Jesus. It is a full journey into the light, through the darkness, and into Universal balance…. If only for me.
One of us hears you guys. Thank you!
6, con’t: Anyway, so hold the light in your center. Heart chakra. Prayer to the light, for the light.
I say “I am the light, I walk in the light, I hold the light, I am the path. I am the light, The path of light…” Some variant of this every time, not the same all the time. Feeling evoked is what matters, not the words. Use whatever words matter to you. It’s personal. And I say that I walk the path of light by choice. And any conversations, any help, any dark work even, must be in the light, of the light-love. So the dark is not scary any longer. Not one bit. Because I choose to hold it, and grok it even, and I choose to put it away like a kind, balanced adult and not use it. It’s as simple as that. No devils assailing me. No assassination attempts. We walk in the light-love, always. Even when we don’t remember to consciously. But it is a constant choice, to surrender this way. You don’t just go once and then you’re in. Think of it like that initiation you had to go through… yea, that’s how you get in every time you want to. The hard way. Every time. Until you know… that you don’t need to. But careful, baby steps with this.
- So I find the light in my center, and I ride it down the dark, black hole because I know there is nothing to be afraid of. This is not hell. This is the dark portal. It is of the light, but it hides behind the dark. People mistake that to mean they should do dark to find the light – maybe, if they really, really know as an advanced being, and then they feel they are probably helping us.
Yes, the Hitlers, I’m talking about. So what if they feel they are helping or not? If they know they are “evil for good’s sake” or they are just stinking evil sociopaths, what difference does it make to any of us? They are still the worst of the worst that humanity has to offer, and they are still us. We are still them. And that hurts to grok. Yes. In your own hearts, you could be Hitler. Maybe not that level, but the vast majority of you could have been SS camp guards, doing the worst of the worst. Could have been Stalin’s, Mao’s secret police. These people are not bad people in their hearts, if they realized there was a better choice. Situational dictates are way, way more wide than we are comfortable admitting. But to not admit that ugly within us… We risk allowing the dark to overtake us. You can’t hide under the covers any longer and ask Daddy to scare away the Boogey man. You are the boogey man, and you are the hero of justice that can bring the boogey man in line.
The dark portal….
So I see the portals now as a spiraling, spinning light of a sorts. The dark side glows with darkness if this makes sense of what you might want to look for if this is your first foray here. Let me know how it goes. By the time you read this, I’ll be… maybe another year ahead. Find me. Find us. If only through your own mind into the Universal flow. We’re here waiting to help.
Heavy lifting, God yes, why do you think we keep saying this over and over and over. You need to change the GD title of the book to Heavy Lifting because that is exactly what this is, children. YES YOU ARE CHILDREN. Get over your little triggered selves. Children can whine and cry and turn into little destructives brats. Quit letting everything in your 3D resistance trigger you. If you can’t hold yourself in your own mind, if you constantly “lose your mind” when you are triggered by trivial 3D bullshit, how can you possibly handle things and energies that are orders of magnitude infinitely LARGER??!! You can’t so get over your bullshit little egotistical self-stories you make up in your own minds and then get your panties all in a bunch over. Being offended by something is the height of childish arrogance, as if the comfort of you in your own little safe space delusions is more important than anyone else in this world…
Grow the fuck up and get over yourselves. Only a child throws a tantrum at being called a child. An adult knows they are not a child any longer and leaves childish pastimes behind. It can be scary, to drop the persona you think you are and move forward. Sure, born again, if you want to call it that, whatever works for you.
YES! Some of the others have this part right, a living ascension.
A living… Christ ascension that is, to be specific. (and we do not mean this in any way to be a Christian message, though some of you will misconstrue and not hear, either happy for the answer, or pissed off that this is a religious thing. I only mean conceptually, most modern educated people at least understand the Christ ascension idea as a basic meme, even those who are not Christian. That’s all we mean- the meme of ascension-rising. You do not need to die. You just need to know you can choose this, any time you want. But in this choice, you can then also choose to stay rooted, in the solid. With the knowledge, and as much of the connection is possible from this realm as we exist now, in the 3D. But with the connection working both ways, we can build ourselves a nice solid field to grow and expand from. We can get our house in order and expand. Inward and outward.
You do not need anything but yourselves. You are the masters of your… we can do that later.
Back to the light.
- The dark light tunnel, but it’s spiraling at a very high speed. “Both” of them. THE light side and the “dark” side, the other way… So I find the glowing dark spiral from my 3rd chakra, I see the filament, and then I move it up to my 3rd 6th Chakra activation.
Oh, right, the ass-clenching, no joke totally serious, breathing in and up the spine. Clenching around the root chakra, and then up the spine into the Pineal gland. Kundalini’s ascent, absolutely. I could actually see it build tonight. Like a nuclear bomb bright going off from my root chakra, as I squeeze all the way up my spine and force all the pressure into my pineal gland, which I can hold in my conscious thought now that I know right where it is… And bammm, I ride the spiral out and a short pop through the inner darkness, and then I’m back into Akashic-level. The back door.
Viola… And this only took what, 15 pages?
Just, what, like 5 simple steps that have now taken you over 100,000 words to get to.. Yea us, BTW. This seems like some sort of milestone.
C – WHEW. Finally got it all down. Been solidifying that deep dive method for like 4 weeks maybe… Maybe a little less, but still. Man. To get it all down. Christ. Steps 2-4… That one is hard.
Well, I really hope we don’t need all of us because that one is going to take… Fuck so much time.
Q: How do we consider a species as a whole, conscious and not a danger? Fully sentient and awake, not just 3D awake. There are 7.5 billion of us. Maybe we can all snap our fingers like Thanos (not to disappear, but to ascend so maybe that looks like a disappearance to those “left behind”???… But soft landing demands that we slide in… using what we know, using who we are now. We don’t fall any further, we stabilize. But how many do we need. And those who insist on keeping on keeping on the 3D ways… What of them in my new world that I am manifesting?
How do we separate the wheat from the chaff?
I feel I’ve covered this already, but more as suppositions and what-ifs.
Call them unknowns at this point, and try not to dwell too much on the long-long real-real. We have work to do here first, and then we can explore there. So be careful the too deep dives…
C-Anyway. See if we can get back…. But this is a pretty good session. I don’t think I was erased once. I held it together, pulling myself back just at the last millisecond of no return… So now I even know where the line is, at least this one time. But if I found it once, now I know what it feels like. It is a moving line, as I get better, the goalpost moves. The goal post always moves.
…That was the quick vision/reminder earlier of getting your ass kicked. You need to remember this. Don’t let your head get big. We are constantly learning, there is always so much more to go. Sure you know a few things, but the moment you feel too special, the Universe is ready and waiting to kick you square in the nuts should you insist on needing it. Hard and repeatedly. Just like a good training partner. Always pushing ourselves to make ourselves better, this means we can never rest on our laurels, feeling we’re special, that we’re done. You’re damn right Kano, founder of Judo, was buried with his white belt. That’s a fantastic metaphoric lesson for life, and a rock-solid one: Always a white belt. Meaning, always a student, never a master.
Beginners mind. You know this. The further along you go, the more you need to not just know this, but live it. Your responsibility as an Adult is to know you are only responsible for you, and, therefore, you are only qualified to comment/judge you.
But once you can plug in and tune in, man… Shit. That’s the joke.
You think you have a cloud and harp waiting for you. Heaven is no work. You kick back and just float in a warm tub until the end of eternity? Really? That’s what ya’ll think is out there?
C- I don’t know if my path will work for anyone else. But out of 7+ billion, it’s gotta work for at least 10. You 10 get 10 more. And they get 10 more. And 10 more. And 10 more… And then I’m not sure what happens when we’re at 10% of us. 20… 50, 75% God, in my lifetime, I’ll feel like we get somewhere if we can get 10% of us awake and rowing in the right direction. Maybe that’s it. The crew and steerage/passengers. So long as the passengers are happy and don’t mutiny…. Then a smaller % of us can be rowing in the right direction. I have not read all the way, but I suspect this is what the Hopi Survival Kit describes. How they knew that some of them had to hold the song of the world in their hands… And at some point they would have to let go their vision, their grip and let the world spin on its own. Sink or swim. And they knew this, and took on a 1000-year dedication, knowing it was going to kill them as a people. Down to one who would sing one last song for the Earth and one last prayer for her people… That we will hear and understand, is the last prayer. He made it just far enough to chuck one last, very long spear into the future and stick a pilot line for us. If we know how to find it and to grab it. Yes this is higher work. But maybe this one last warrior is one of many warriors.
The Universe doesn’t roll dice with chance, and that scales. The Hopis are one hope, but I suspect not the only. But it is a true way, their ways. I can see the thread of how they might have been able to hold Mother Earth from falling. Well, not Mother. Humanity. Us. They were holding us consciously in existence, manifesting for us all. I suspect there are more, but who knows? I’ve only read of this one group so far, who seemed to have the full-full idea, not corrupted with much of any ego as I can tell. Jesus-H, they held on to that life for 1000 years for us. This tells us something. More than any monument of stone, those matter also, but a living monument of humanity’s life song, of our life line in the universe. They, literally, kept the light on for us. I suspect there were others, but I don’t know. Maybe there are so many other pilot Earths, like-earths out there, other planets with other beings with other sentient life working out the puzzle. If we are so small a chance, then sure, we get one life line to find…
But the Universe Scales, so I know there are more answers. We’re not so dramatic, as all Great Hero stories show in your movies – of the near-death failure… That last match you need to light. The last try before you quit… That proverbial last hurrah of an effort, live or die! Once more into the breech!!!! You all know this myth, it’s embedded everywhere. Your entertainment, your modern entertainment, no different than folktales and lore of old. Same myths and themes given to you over and over and over… for a reason. Because that is your personal story. But it scales, so it stands to reason we COULD get down to one last person to save us all. Sure, who doesn’t want to be the hero in our own stories? Regardless, you know now. And when you know better, we do better.
Friends, this is not about me, but we do not improve by crashing the best of us. We are the stabilization point. Modern 1st world society. No, not with all the pollution and hard-ness on the Earth, on ourselves. Of course not. But we don’t lift up our fellow humans by destroying what we have built, in any way. That is a control myth, to keep you scared, to keep those who are comfortable from letting others have as much. This is a trap.
There is plenty for everyone in the Universe. It’s really just a problem of energy for you now, at this point. Get the god damn zero point up and running, and then you have surplus, ULTIMATE GREEN AND FREE energy. Yes, that’ll be a disruption, but we can navigate that in the open, honestly with sane adults of the world coordinating, peacefully. This goes without question. We cannot move on until we roll up the energy scarcity myth, and the dirty energy myth. They fear us out of their control. Yes. The matrix. End of episode 1.
I can feel your fear, I’m going to wake these people up. Not as me being the hero, NO NOT THAT, again… As a metaphor for your Humanity in general. Control structures, breaking free from that which controls you but you never realized existed…. The big bad evil opponent. It’s really you, but, yes, some of you take that pretty far. What’s a life lesson without a supreme opponent? You don’t always win. There is risk of real, honest to God failure, or it’s never a risk to grow. We have to have the ability at some point to sink or swim and annihilate ourselves. I suppose they can intervene, with the Nukes, okay there, sure UFOs “help” us. But that is really to help them. That kind of blast fucks up more than we know. So no, not there, not that way. But fire away with environmental destruction through toxic shit. No, not the Co2 (this is C’s opinion, we need to be clear here). But he might be right. Co2/carbon is a myth used to control today. Toxic shit is the problem. GMOs. Chemicals, factory farms, monoculture, you’re slow killing yourselves, and that is perfectly permitted in the Universe. We have to be able to risk all or we cannot win all. I cannot get around the logic of this. If someone else can see it differently, please enlighten us!
Please, prove us wrong if you are able. I sure would like to know if there is an easier way, God, would I ever. But I think we need to jump without a net, as a species. I see no other way, from what they are showing me. For how dangerous we would be to our friends and colleagues of the Universe… We cannot be permitted to continue and pollute the whole system. If we are not healthy, we don’t get help or connection…. That way, at least.
Sure, evil sides that took the AI side, those could be “real” and working against us. Why not? There’s no reason this idea/myth/modern deep UFO conspiracy side stuff – there’s no reason I can prove that doesn’t exist, with all I’ve… groked this year, that shit would just be a second pimple on the Universe’s ass, as I’ve seen-experienced it.
C- Whoa. Trip. The. Fuck. Out. Just now.
I just had full conscious recollection/contact from a time cast from the past. I even waved to myself, in the glass of a picture across the room. I was kind of fuzzy and not a fully formed vision of myself… Go back in the notes, it’s back there a few weeks ago. Seeing the swimming visions of a future cast… smoky, like looking through water or smoke from far away… From a small picture across the room, in the low light. Yea, kind of like that. LOL. So hello a few weeks ago me. Apparently the time casting is bearing fruit, so I’m on to something here… OR, well.. Yea, we’re way off the reservation, Gomer, of I’m bat shit crazy. That ship sailed around the world 100 years ago my friend. You’re here now.. And yep, doing great. We’re tired together, I am to….
HM – A good time to wrap up. That’s at least a 10,000 word evening, so I think that’s a pretty good night.
Doing better, dude. Maybe don’t need the hypnosis yet, if at all. Trust your gut. You are doing well self-trained and you are a good self-monitor, give yourself some credit where it’s due, this is permitted and healthy. You know this. But this just means you choose to give a shit about presenting a clean message, that’s all. Don’t go getting all mister big britches yet, because you get a complement from us.
We have a long, long way to go, my friend. But this is absolutely the best, stable and not a single forgetting or dropped thread tonight, in like 3+ hours now. Shit.. I shall take my leave and rock myself asleep patting my little ego on the head for the night.
Peace and Love to all,